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it’s the shittiest feeling to just miss someone so much that you just can’t be that happy person others want you to be or wish you could be. and you can ignore it but it’s always just there and god, it sucks. and i hate it and i need to distract myself but wohoo my flight is HOURS delayed and i already got yelled at for having dared to ask to be picked up at the airport, because why would we ever do sth different from what makes other people comfortable. as long as everyone else is fine, who would give a shit about how i feel about things. seriously fuck this.
Please know that if you date me, I am a very touchy person. I will like to pet your head and hold your hand, rub your shoulders or hug you a lot. Simply put, to physically feel you in some way is very comforting to me and I can’t really apologize for it, it just feels natural to me and makes me happy.
I wish I could have met you in a different way. I wish I didn't have the ability to hide behind a grey face. I wish you weren't leaving on Thursday. I wish we met face to face so I would walk over to you and introduce myself in the most embarrassing way possible. I wish things were different. I wish I was able to do the things I wanted. I wish I could make it seem like a movie and sweep you off your feet. I wish everything was different.
Awww you *hugs* That was really kinda sad to read, I’m sorry :(
Yeah, I have work and educational things I must attend :/ I knoooow, I know. I'm really sorry. I know by not coming off anon I'm probably just making it worse for myself and creeping you out more. I will. One day I will.
Yeah, sounds “normal” :P
Nah, it’s fine, don’t worry. Just that I don’t really like replying publicly ;) That’s the only reason.
So what’s your name, anon?